There are a million and one reasons to be hard, bitter, distant. Life can make us this way. But there is nothing more beautiful than tenderness….a sensitivity so pure, that hears words unspoken…cries withheld. Don’t let the junk of life tarnish your heart, put cotton in your ears, blinders over your eyes. It’s indeed hard to remain soft in a hostile world. But maybe it’s in the brokenness of our own lives that our tenderness and sensitivity come. I’m rough…I can hold my own, but I’m also tender…soft in the heart. May seem extreme, but I dont apologize for either, lol, for it is a bit of Who and what is inside of me coming out. I think we should let our HEARTS be revived once again…to be soaked with Love, with calouses removed. I know that’s what I want.
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Threats come to capsize us….in our thoughts…emotions…like a never ending, blazing storm blowing our ship here and there, threatening to take us assunder…into the depths. But take hope. You know HOW you WILL overcome the storms? Step by step. You don’t have to know….you don’t have to know the path, the details, how it’s going to work. You don’t have to figure it out. Release your mind from being consumed with such thoughts. Know for a fact that God is your hope….He will NEVER allow you to be overtaken and He’s got the plan. (Hebrews 6:19 …hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast…). I know it’s hard to get out from underneath despair, but you have God…He’s got you. He will rescue, strengthen, sustain you. Fear not…even when God is all you have, He is ALWAYS more than enough.
There are issues in life that need addressed head on… brought out into the light and dealt with until the power of the thing ceases. Some things take time and are a process; however, there comes a point in time when you move on…where you refuse to encamp around this issue. It makes me think of this… when I was younger I would leave my house and walk to the track. I would spend about a hour walking the track…around and around in circles. BUT eventually I went home…I didn’t stay there. In life, sometimes you need to leave the track….the issue is dealt with….no need to keep walking in circles…go home….move on and don’t stay stuck walking the track.
Sometimes there is an event or a series of events that are catastrophic to our very lives themselves. Pain comes, heartache, deep wounding. The severity is like a never ending storm that brings waves that threaten to overtake us frequently, at the very moment when we think we have a little breathing room. That’s when despair rushes in once again. Here’s what I’m saying…yes, it’s painful…in a very, very deep place in the heart where only ache resides. We can choose to stay there. Or we can take that negative energy, change it’s course, and allow it to propel us into something positive. What am I talking about? Every time pain and disappointment come from one angle…express feeling about it, then choose to do something positive in return. As an example….somebody tries to tear you down with their abusive words/ways? Don’t stay stuck in it. Go and encourage someone else…build someone else up. Why? Because I think it prohibits bitter waters from taking up residence in our hearts. We can’t change people. We can only choose to respond in a positive manner, even if that means elsewhere. Take what was meant for evil and use it for good. Recalibrate the negative into something positive.
You ever take a second to think how prideful and arrogant we are as people? We think we know everything. We know the right path….we know what’s right, what works, what doesn’t work, right? We are our own leader. And yet we wonder why our lives end up in a state of such despair. Why we walk in constant heartache. Humility asks for help. If God is who He says He is then He ALWAYS leads according to love, right? Then why don’t we follow? Because it doesn’t make sense…we think we know better and yet when we follow our own lead we usually end up in trouble. We think our ways are more correct than the Creator of the universe.
Micah 6:8 ESV
He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?
I admit, at times I don’t get God, don’t understand His ways and want to do my own thing, a lot. But I know when I follow myself, heartache is around the corner. Sometimes I forget that God leads according to love, always for MY best benefit, not to withhold good from me.
Sometimes we are like a dry sponge….we soak up all that is around us….all the nasty, rough, ugly…and that’s what starts to come out of us. Or nasty, rough, ugly is already inside of us because of hurt, pain…unhealed. But we can create a place to dump all that out. Dump out the pain, hurt. Get rid of nasty. Create space for beauty again. We can learn to heal. It’s kind of like a bucket. If the bucket is full of ugly, that’s all that will come out. But the more that the ugly is dealt with and resolved, the more space is in the bucket for beauty to be poured in again. When beauty is poured in, it can then be poured out. I really believe some of us can become climate changers. That even if we are the hurt ones…as we heal, we receive beauty again and can therefore create beauty. What if we then become a sponge, who though even surrounded by rough, nasty, pain, etc, creates beauty. When squeezed…nothing comes out but beauty, not nasty. We can change the climate. It’s possible.
Sometimes you’re going to go into a season that is hard, heartbreaking, tough. And the lie that is going to come is going to try to convince you that you are stuck…you’ll be here forever….it will never pass, etc. But let me encourage you. I’ve been there and quite honestly it was overwhelming…everyday. I felt stuck, sore….whiped out, everyday. It was torture. It felt like it was NEVER going to end. I could not see my way out, at all. And I had no expiration date for the heartache. But, in this time, I leaned on God. I had to…He was my only option. And sure enough, step by step, He brought me out. NOTHING was strong enough to hold me up….I mean yes, God brought some people along my journey at distinct times for purpose, but had I not had God I would have never made it. So if you feel stuck in waves of despair, God WILL bring you THROUGH it:
Yea, though I walk THROUGH the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me.
When you pass THROUGH the waters, I will be with you; and THROUGH the rivers, they shall not overflow you; when you walk THROUGH the fire, you shall not be burned; nor shall the flame scorch you for I am the Lord, your God.
He is going to bring you THROUGH.
To everything there is a season.
Ever feel like you’re on this journey of life, alone? Like there’s no direction and you’ve got to figure it out yourself? Me too, sometimes. But, God is the leader…shepherd of our very souls who is in constant pursuit of us, for our good. He doesn’t walk out, doesn’t leave when it’s messy…He actually comes after us with such love and tenderness, yearning to lead and guide, provide, protect. He doesn’t get so upset that He leaves us to our own devices, wondering what we are to do. He can’t stand the distance, He comes after us. Check this out:
Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence? If I ascend into heaven, You are there; if I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there. If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there Your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me.
Can a woman forget her nursing child, and not have compassion on the son of her womb? Surely they may forget, yet I will not forget YOU. See, I have inscribed YOU on the palms of My hands; your walls are continually before Me.
Listen, there was a time of rebellion in my life….turned my back on God and yet He still pursued me, even in that time…like a parent with desperate longing for His lost child who would do anything to secure me…bring me back to safety. As I look back, I can NOW see where His hand of protection & provision was there all along….He made a way of escape for me…and still does, though it’s hard to see.
For I am persuaded that neither death nor life; nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God…
No separation…He pursues…He encloses the distance because of His love.
Is your focus jacked up? Like I mean it feels like things come at you in all these different directions, some piercing your heart, and you dont even know why? I’m convinced that maybe your focus is under attack for a reason. Maybe God is trying to speak…and the way He communicates with you is through your eyes….you see…He shows you things. So crazy crap happens possibly to get your attention onto things of little significance. Because there’s such POWER in what God shows you. If we could realize what may be happening and why, then switch our focus back on God and listen with our eyes….I’m thinking He is going to show us some amazing things….revelation that is very powerful. So, guard your gates….what is coming through your eyes and ears….and listen because I think God is speaking. You have a CHOICE on what to focus on.